Kiwi的呱呱窝

Taeyeon - If

If i were to go
If i were to get close to you
What would you think?
I don’t have the courage.
If you were to go,
If you were to leave.
I don’t know how to send you away
It keeps hanging on my mind
I know i am a fool and can only watch you from afar
Your heart may look away from me…
And so we could even become strangers

Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because …
We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad.
If you were to come
To come near me.
What would i do ?
I really don’t know
Because im like a fool.
Even though i know looking is all i can do
Your heart may look away from me
And so we could even become strangers
Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because….
We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad
Because i’m like a fool
Even though i can’t say i love you
We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad.

这首歌词唱出了所有感情中的胆小鬼的心声吧。

不敢实践愿望，却又在确定失去后才来幻想如果当初有尝试做了什么事，今天是否就有不同的结果。

胆小鬼的心声应该是：在选择于想拥有的欲望vs保持原状就不会受更大的痛苦的心态，后者胜利。

毕竟如果的一面是未知的快乐，如果的另一面是未知的痛苦。

当胆小鬼面对未知，大概宁愿相信痛苦的机会大一点，来杜绝对未知的快乐的奢望。

写词人也是这么想的吧。歌词有写到或许在一起之后，等待我们的是痛苦与悲伤。

虽然像是在逃避，不过却是安慰自己的不勇敢的最好方法。

毕竟，未来谁知呢？

我有一个想法。当你的脑中出现一个“如果”，这就表示你心里有了一个“遗憾”。

“如果”可以是个很好的自我检讨的工具，也可以是你止步不前的障碍。 

“遗憾”即是如此。

它能让你更充实的活着以确保遗憾不再发生。也可以从此在你人生中覆上一层阴影，担心事情重演。

这能和我上一篇的文章里所写的漩涡相连吧。走不出，就表示只能在原地旋转。

我差一点就掉进一个漩涡里了。幸好沉睡了一个钟头后，似乎把之前的阴霾一扫而空。

突然觉得没什么大不了的。 （当然本人也是一名非常乐观的人）

之前似乎把自己想的太在乎，太悲情了。

就好像每次看偶像剧时，会情不自禁的把自己放在主角们的立场那样，又悲从中来，又喜极而泣。

To All 胆小鬼in the world：我相信这世界上一定有一个人是能让你决定要奋不顾身的。要继续走，才能碰到哦。

p.s. 胆小股和陌生人注定是两条平行线。